This is my life motto right now. I am just happy to be walking on this earth in the presence of God. It’s funny because I have always heard the phrase since I was younger - “You’ll understand when you get older.” Now, as I am growing older and developing more responsibility in every aspect of my life, I am able to walk down the road of understanding. This road is in the shape of a crescent, and the clarity is coming full circle. I am able to look back and understand that my life- in every instance- is exactly what it should be. More notably, I am living the positive outcomes of the correct decisions I have made throughout the years.

There is little that I strive for besides making a difference in young people’s lives. I don’t want to just make a difference in the lives of young people in the foster care system but also in everyone’s life that I come to know. I don’t mean arrogance by that, but I want everyone to be a better person knowing me. I believe that I have lived through everything to teach everyone something- minor or major. I also believe that I have a lesson to learn from each individual I meet- minor or major. This two way street is how I connect with people, grow with people and share my life with people.

It Just Feels Good To Be Alive is the title of my first (of many) books I will publish. I feel as though I have been blessed with the gift of words, and I want to share that with the world. This book is a side of me that nobody knows about. It documents my life in the most pure and raw form. To be honest, it is the biggest accomplishment I have to date- I am officially a published author!!! I have sold 5 books, and that excites me. It scares me at the same time, because I cannot feel more vulnerable.

As I am rapidly approaching the closure of understanding, of this period of my life, I cannot help but lament in the experience as a whole. I am happy I navigated it, but I am just as excited it is coming to a close. I am ready and eager to walk in the new direction, continuing the ‘infinite circle’ I’m calling life. I’m living for the line and forgetting about the dot; frankly it doesn’t matter where I end up if I’m always in God’s Will. Now is the time in my life where I start walking in the places I don’t want to- facing the emotional disabilities I have built walls up for in the past- confronting the things that hurt me the most. I am going to get hurt and grow from that pain; I am going to have to leave childish ways behind; I am going to have to challenge myself to do the things I have not done yet. It is my understanding that I must now solidify my past as past and face the challenges that the future will present.