No matter how many times I read the story, I’m always a little bit surprised when I realize that the Lord spoke with Moses face to face, the way one would speak to a friend.

There are days that I forget this. I forget that He delights in me. That He wants to show me His glory, and grant me rest. That He desires to speak to me, and wants me to trust His voice. I forget that He is already dwelling in my future. And that He has a perfect path set out for me.

I resort to my timeline, succumb to my anxieties and let myself forget.

It hurts me to even acknowledge this truth. I want to always trust Him as my best friend, to put my heart willingly into His hands without trying to grab it back. I really want to walk by faith. Sometimes I’m successful and sometimes I’m not. But where is the line drawn between desiring these things and actually accomplishing them?

I think about this a lot. Is the desire of wanting to depend solely on God with the day-to-day stuff enough to make me actually do it? Or does it take more than that?

Maybe that line is blurred, and it’s a little bit of both. Desiring unfaltering faith and trust in God should bring us to our knees in prayer. It should make us realize that we’ll never get there on our own, that we need to pray for God to provide the faith and trust before we can truly see Him as our friend.

It’s through this prayer that we are able to lay our lives down at His feet, and seek His will instead of our own. I pray that we be so intertwined with our Saviour that we won’t be able to distinguish our will from His.