Jehovah Jireh,

I am so frustrated and discouraged. I know that Your timing is perfect. But how long must I wait on You? I feel like nothing ever comes easily for me; everything seems like a struggle. Help my heart to be soft and pliable so that I can learn from this - show me what You are trying to teach me. Because I just don’t get it sometimes.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12

Father, my heart is sick. Aching. All this waiting is making my heart ache. God, let me turn this aching heart to You. Let me turn its focus solely to You. Because when it comes down to it, You’re the only thing that matters. Make my heart pure and blameless before You. You deserve my everything - show me how to give it over to You, to use my gifts to give You glory.

You love me so much. You will NEVER abandon me, as I’ve been abandoned before. You died for me. Help me to completely realize the power and the truth of these statements.

I’m trying really hard to walk by faith, Father. Strengthen me. May my faith and trust in You be unfaltering. Heal my disbelief. Extinguish my doubt in the promises You’ve given me and confirmed to be time and time again.

Forgive me for forgetting your goodness. Everyday I lose sight of Your awesome promises and lean on my own petty understanding. How foolish!

God, I trust you. I lay my heart at the foot of Your throne. You know what I need.

Abba - I adore You. I love You so much. Make this love for You a beacon of light to this dark world.

I am so grateful to You, Jesus. Thank You for all You’ve done and are doing in my life and the lives around me. You deserve unending praise!

Written in the journal from the Prayer Room during 40.